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04:06 pm
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Before I Work On Any Substantive Post-
I have failed to save the desired amount this time. :( But I promise to save double that in the next payday. :<
(That was supposed to be a smiley so determined he almost looked constipated. I don't think it works. Just looks like an alien to me. Or Davy Jones from the Pirates of the Caribbean movie.)
I can put my fingers down to the second knuckle bones on the uttanasana (the this thing:
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I feel I need to let you know that my boss is fascinating me right now. I'm not even sure the extent of my interest or even why he's so interesting, but that is one intriguing person.
Finally, who linked me? I really want to know.
I can't google myself until I become a published author (I have a policy. I call it my "No-googling-self-until-published policy").
I'll write more about Kdrama if you tell me (seriously not a hardship whatsoever)!
Bah.
Current Location: DC
Current Mood: Tummy Hurts
Current Music: Fan is on.
Tags: body, goals, internet, kdrama, media, other people, update, yoga
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04:29 pm
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I Have Goals
1. Save money from every paycheck.
2. Do this:
(Yep, with the palms of hands flat on the floor.)
3. Write every day.
Number 4 that I just realized should be on my list:
Write in lj a little more often.
Current Location: DC
Current Music: Only that which is in my head
Tags: update
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03:54 pm
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Warn Me Before Your Surprise Visits.
Came home today to find that we had been surprise safety inspected while we were both at work. I found the paper cheerily telling us we passed the inspection and had no hidden waffle makers where they weren't supposed to be.
I also found the underwear and nightgown I'd strewn across the bed this morning, right in front of the door.
Current Location: DC
Tags: clothes, etiquette, safety
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12:12 pm
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Am No Longer Jet-Lagged
There are so many escalators here. I do expect most public places to have some, but I never expect them in the absence of real stairs. Am slightly miffed.
I was going to write a story here about movies and Brad Pitt (my chances of being in a movie with him remain as high as ever. Probably) but I can't make it as interesting as it could be.
Have been listening to Brody's (and Shemspeed's? I think?) "Bar Yochai" every chance I get. Like it narrates my entire life right now. And I don't really mind that. (Actually, I love it.)
Other than that . . . not much. My calves hurt and I world-build too much but can't stop. And I really, really wish there were some consensus on how to spell that.
Worldbuild? World build? World-build? Conworlding? Dorking around? It makes internet searches difficult.
I've met people who live near the square where the first slave auction was held.
. . . And I can see downsides to living in an area all rich with history. I don't need to say how fucking creepy that must be.
Current Location: DC
Current Music: Ani DiFranco, for a change. (am weaning self away from Bar Yochai)
Tags: body, creeepy, exercise, history, world-building, writing
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06:43 pm
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James Bond, Etiquette Style
My relative taught me about manners in DC. He said, if you meet someone socially and ask them what they do, and if they say simply, "I work for the government," you are not supposed to pry for more specifics. Vague is all you get, because that person might be unable to tell you since s/he's in the CIA or something and prying makes them uncomfortable.
And I asked him, horrified, "But what if you're dating a spy and he's going to kill you?"
Because it hadn't yet occurred to me that James Bond would lie. And then kill you.
Current Location: DC
Current Mood: shoulder hurts
Tags: culture, dc
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05:41 pm
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Chapped Lips and Crooked Teeth
I am in Washington, DC. Since I can't do a post on cannibalism like this, I'll just show you all to this site: http://www.trutv.com/library/crime/criminal_mind/psychology/cannibalism/ It's one of our sources and covers criminal, ritual, sexual, aggressive, and survival cannibalism. Plus some more things, and it's a very quick read.
Anyway, school ended two weeks ago, and then I went back home. It was around 80 at college, and around 55-60 at home. That was a very uncomfortable transition. Now I've gone to DC, where it is 80+ again, but now with added humidity. At first, I was like, "Hey, I remember humidity from vacation! I can handle that."
NO. OMG. Humidity. I will say no more of this. Just: "Good lord!"
( So much happened that I can hint at )
Current Location: DC
Current Music: "Push It," Stereo Total
Tags: animals, body, books, cannibalism, children, cities, people, weather, writing
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02:24 pm
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Also I'm drinking Dr. Pepper again.
Doing a report on cannibalism, Sweeney Todd, and psychology.
Also waiting for an e-mail from my teacher about our paper topics. Due I think on Tuesday? I don't like this waiting.
I got a myspace e-mail and somebody wants to be my friend. (I gave in to my sister's demands that I get one about two years ago and I haven't done anything with it. My picture is a moon and I think I called myself a swinger.) I think this is the e-pen pal guy I was friends with who called me stupid (always guaranteed to hurt. At least use 'dumbass' or something) after I wouldn't let him insult my teacher for longer than the three minutes he was using. Then I had to block him and cry.
That was why I got a livejournal! Because I was lonely, it was my first year at college, and my randomly assigned dorm-mates scared me.
I don't know. Maybe I should befriend him back. Maybe he doesn't realize it's me: a full moon picture is a little ambiguous.
Anywho, it's raining and I went for a very short walk (to the bookstore and back and I don't have enough money for books so I just squatted next to the shelves and sniffed as I flipped through them).
I'm starting to write again! Yay! XD I feel like I'm a decent person again.
Started watching Psych. Not convinced I'll finish even season one. It hasn't weaseled its way into my heart or anything and finding decent quality videos is proving very difficult.
And I finally finished Georgette Heyer's False Colours. It took me about a semester. I can't stand all the ejaculating and the belaboring of the points I've already witnessed and I don't really buy that the two brothers were in love with the women they said (belabored, rather) they were in love with -they are clearly in love with their mother.
Current Location: where else would I be? Dorm room
Current Mood:  geeky
Current Music: birds and rain
Tags: books, friends, tv, update, writer's block, writing
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12:10 pm
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Writer's Block: Same Name
Never, not once in my life, have I met someone with the same name as me. Not a relative, not a stranger. I have heard tales of people who have the same first name as me, and that weirds me out and makes me jealous or envious or some other emotion I don't process well. (Suffice to say: I hate it. Soo glad I'm unique, even if people I've known for years and years still can't pronounce my name, and dude, that is one simple, easy-to-pronounce name.)
Tags: writer's block
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03:20 pm
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I have discovered something I think I knew already
Having two sodas the day before my period started was one of the worst ideas I've had in a long time. I regressed to the kind of pain I experienced in junior and early high school -I couldn't sit still and I couldn't move very fast (but in the middle of shuffling from one room to the next, I twisted my ankle a bit. I was going like .003 mph and I twisted my ankle in the middle of the living room. That is slightly pathetic.), I could barely get down any oatmeal, and there was about an hour where I seriously thought I was going to throw up, and not even make it to the bathroom to do so.
In high school, though, there was a time when I was going to get a six-pack. I did cross-country running during fall season, running like 9 miles out in the desert every school day, and then I'd come home to do fifty (yes. Fifty.) abs exercises before bed. I am not kidding. I was amazing back then.
(And I started eating a bit healthier. Not a whole bunch, but a bit.)
And so I noticed -period pain was significantly lessened. I was amazed. I had gone from the first paragraph, going to the nurse's office several times a year to moan and eat stale crackers and try to sleep, to being able to take one pill and just go about my normal day. Best thing ever.
I eventually gave up my dreams of getting a six-pack, though. (But if I lean back, you can see the outline of my muscles. It's not quite a six-pack, but still pretty cool.) I kept being told, repeatedly, from many different sources, that I was girl and it just wasn't going to happen. I gave up on my dream. :'(
And having regressed two days ago, I drew these lines:
Female body --> needs exercise simply to avoid extreme pain --> no six-pack.
Male body --> does not need exercise to avoid extreme pain --> six-pack easy.
Are there any general, obvious, well-known exceptions to this? I'm thinking healthy cis bodies here and I can't find any. I'm sort of annoyed, as a female six-pack-wanter, but then I can see major downsides to the male side.
Also -unrelated- on Sunday I was feeling a bit better and cleaned shit. Kitchen counters, floors (sweeping and mopping), walls, door handles and light switches, all the dishes by hand (eww and also epic), toilet, slight organizing. And then I made a salad. And all while watching a House marathon. You can tell me how cool I am, for not going outside at all.
Current Music: "Circles," Soul Coughing
Tags: body
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10:01 pm
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Why, yes, it has been several months now.
I am aware that Race Fail '09 exists/existed. I do not know the full extent of it (because I suspect that is impossible) and I am not sure it is over. ( Read more... )
Current Mood:  morose
Tags: ethnicity, gender, internet, judaism, justice, race, sex, writing
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02:48 pm
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This Weekend
I climbed up this thing.
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09:02 pm
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Technically I'm working on a paper right now . . .
I broke my tooth! I didn't even notice until I was brushing my teeth later that night.
Clearly I can't be trusted around teeth. (This is what I get for being one out of of maybe 100 people who floss every night.) This is like the third time I've chipped them (though only the second time I've chipped a fitting/fake thing covering up a chip in my teeth)!
I can feel it with my tongue and it's a bit of a sharp edge.
Also I'm giving away my new orange sandal/shoes because I discovered I can't stand them. They looked pretty, but they are actually out to kill me. There's no flat part for the heel (which is like four inches tall), so all my weight goes onto my toes, and then there is no cushioning between all my body weight concentrated in my toes and the ground. I took them off all the day I wore them, then got told not to come into the cafeteria anymore because somehow one quarter-inch piece of cardboard saves feet from becoming a health hazard.
Sandals are the only things that keep me from washing my feet in your food. Or something.
Five papers due before the exams . . . Woo hoo . . .
Tags: body
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08:29 pm
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Pff.
My new icon makes me snort. (I can't remember where I found it.)
Two weeks! So many papers! Just finished a yummy book!
This runner's high might be a little dangerous. I notice sometimes, I'll be running around and notice it's been nearly an hour and then my knee will start hurting but I'll say "Push through it!" even when it's obvious that that is not the best idea. And I'll try to push through it and, sure enough, that's not the best idea.
And then I'll ride on the bike machine at 90 rpm (well, it looks impressive, but I don't reallly know what it means) for forty minutes, then run around for another half hour. I'll be telling myself, "I should stop. I should stretch." But I kind of can't.
. . . Like how the kid in Akira couldn't help exploding his girlfriend?
Awkward way to bring that back around.
Tags: anime, exercise, movies, running, update
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05:28 pm
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200 Pound Discussion
At Dramabeans there was a discussion/argument about the messages in 200 Pounds Beauty that I found very interesting.
I sided with Sere at the outset and, later, Javabeans (noo, not just because it was Javabeans) -it is really, really, unbelievably, ridiculously hard to look at that movie, fun as it was, and not see a very unhealthy "Get plastic surgery and you will become beautiful and worth other people's consideration!" message. And I have seen Samsooki's arguments about "It's just one movie!" and "Blame society at large!" and "Can't you see it's a comedy/fantasy and if you can't, you need help!" WAAAAY too many times (and I've always thought they were crap) to give them any sort of credence.
Nonetheless, interesting discussion.
Current Mood: My back hurts
Current Music: The sound of a finally contented stomach.
Tags: beauty, kdrama, using the brains
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08:47 pm
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Don!
My aunt bought me Bollywood movies that only have Hebrew subtitles, so I can learn some Hebrew. (Beginning Hebrew student, actors speaking Hindi . . . but they did use English sometimes!) I finally watched this one today.
At first, it's like, "Eh. Typical action movie." But NO!
IT IS NOT! IT IS AMAZING!
Also, in profile, Shahrukh Khan looks a lot like a younger version of my father.
Current Music: The trailer.
Tags: bollywood
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12:20 pm
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First Thought
First thought on realizing I was awake this morning:
"Whew. So I guess no one's ordered a hit on me yet."
Current Location: dorm
Current Music: Diwon's "The Beat Guide to Yiddish" is running through my brain :)
Tags: quotes
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03:28 pm
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It was spring last week
And now it is winter again and my hands are stiff from the cold.
I have learned that it's a good idea to make your writing progress public, in order to make you write more substantially . . .
So, I've started going back to things that I missed earlier when I was world-building and I now have two kinds of marriage, a divorce process I really like (unrelated story idea!), but I still need adoption (except I don't actually need it, I just really want to know) and I really need to learn about agriculture, geography, and climate. Sadly, I cannot find any information that will be of use to me, especially since I'm practically science-illiterate. Most of what I've been finding is ethanol research, modern-day US-centric, otherwise not applicable, and all either too opaque for me or too light on the details and patently obvious. Can anyone help?
I suppose it's good that after a long break I'm going back to my world with a critical eye and finding things I really need to rework and learn about, but now I've realized I may need some major changes (and I really don't want to make them) and I've realized that I don't have a catalyst. I've always known I didn't have a plot to speak of, but that seems kind of more serious, somehow.
Current Location: dorm
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: trying to drown out roommate's way too loud music with Ray LaMontagne
Tags: weather, writing
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12:46 pm
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It Is All Amazing
Pretty much how I feel most of the time, except for the part about "oh, this generation!" Also, I can watch Dexter online with Chinese subtitles and that is oodles of fun and amazing.
Current Location: dorm
Tags: cool, feelings of happiness, media
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08:28 pm
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Peacocks
Peacocks have been keeping me up at night.
They're loud and sort of annoying.
Yes, someone has fucking peacocks in the middle of the city.
Tags: animals
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04:44 pm
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Oh, Those Things.
On Wednesday I need to register for classes, which is a day after (school) elections*, which is also the day after I talk to The One Who Knows about studying abroad . . . I'm thinking maybe I can swing Israel** in Spring '10 and Japan Fall '10 . . . and Tuesday (tomorrow!) may also be the day I ask about how I'm going to apply for housing if I might not be on campus half the scholastic year. Though it may not.
Friday is the deadline for turning in the housing application form, which is not the day I apply for housing exactly (this is confusing. I won't try to explain) and also I'm not allowed to apply before underclassmen who live in this state (What! I ask you, What!), and also it is highly unlikely I will be working in this state over any summer due to scholarship stuff (this isn't confusing, but I still won't explain) so finding a place off campus before the day class starts is rather awkward, and also my lovely roommates aren't quite sure what they're doing, so no for-sure first or second or even third choices there.
And looking at all the classes I can take next semester, I can see that 1. there are only about eight that I need to take to graduate/go abroad/not freak out for now and 2. somehow, for some strange reason, (this has never happened before!) there are no conflicts. If I could take all those credit hours, I could take every single one of those classes. I am much distressed by this. (Seriously: Medieval Lit, early American Lit, Science Thingy with Humanities Stuff, or Plato?)
Other than that, I just need to continue with homework (oooh, hoo hoo), turn in lots of whatsits I don't even understand for my summer internship, and probably loads more things I don't even remember, and this will likely bite me in the ass, by which I mean I'll remember them almost but not quite too late (which could be anywhere from a few days before the deadline to a few months) and then I'll freak out a lot.
Yessss.
*What NOT to do in an election debate:
**My roommates' reactions to my desire to go to Israel were all along the lines of "AWESOME!" which makes me much happier than the usual reaction of "OMGWTFiswrongwithyou?" Though I appreciate that folks fear for my safety and all.
Current Location: dorm room!
Current Music: The Black Skirts, "Tangled"
Tags: college, israel, japan, media, school, worryworryanxietyworry
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